It saddens me that I have been such a pain in your heart because of my complicated feelings. Even though that you feel that I am not, there is a part of me, telling me that I am.
You are such a lovely guy, caring and loves me so much. But why do I feel this hurt inside my heart. Is it because you're far away from me or because you still don't know me?
When I met you, I decided to follow my heart which have been controlled by my mind for ages. It was a happy relationship but just like what others say, there is no perfect relationship. I don't know if I'm doing it right, to give you some space but I think this is good for me as well. I fell in love with you so deep that I can't control anymore. When I'm upset, it gives me so much pain. Funny that it is just a small thing that others might tell me "That's it?!". Anyway, I'm a complicated lady who's just experiencing this kind of love for the first time.
You said last night that I shouldn't forget that you love me... You once said that you hope for a happy ending... You always remind me that I'm pretty in my natural look and I don't need make ups... You hold me like you don't want to let go of me... You stayed up late just to be with me, supporting me in doing my assignments... These are some of the things that you've done for me. I'm such a lucky girlfriend! But..... why am I feeling that there is something missing.
I know that you will not like it but I think this is the time that we need to give ourselves some space especially me. I want to have a strong heart again. A heart full of happiness. I love you so much but I need to love myself as well. I'm just afraid that one day, you might not be able to catch me when I fall.
Always remember that you will always be in my heart! Je t'aime mon cheri!
